October 17, 2017
When we go through a wilderness experience with Jesus, it is important to remember what the goal of the wilderness is. It is always the goal of the Father to bring us into maturity as adult sons just like our example, Jesus. To achieve this goal, we must be rid of ‘self’. This process we have outlined is primarily from the perspective of God exposing the ‘self’ nature to us, so we can see just how much an enemy it is to our own souls and to Him. There is a curious Scripture that goes as follows “Behold, I have created the smith who blows on the fire of coals and who produces a weapon for its purpose; and I have created the devastator to destroy.” Isaiah 54:16. This verse helped us understand that our prime adversary, satan, is used by God to expose the ‘self’ nature in each of us. Time and again God will use pressure, affliction and hardship in the wilderness to expose our own treacherous, duplicitous and evil ‘self’ nature. Each time Jesus does this, He calls us to repent of ‘self’ so we will be a clean vessel for His Spirit to fully indwell us. But to say that this is the only way God bids us to be rid of ‘self’, would do a disservice to His almighty power.
When we lived in Sherwood Park, Alberta we lived in a suburban middle class bubble that kept us sheltered and isolated from the poor and homeless. We insulated ourselves with church and money which kept us from seeing the harshness of life. It was only after we left our house and belongings and moved east, that we began our own slow descent into poverty. Once there, we experienced firsthand what the poor and needy go through. These were tough but very valuable lessons; for Jesus taught us empathy and compassion for those in need, along with the lessons about our own ‘self’. What we did not understand, until today, was how much Jesus works through the poor and needy to also get rid of ‘self’ in us.
In Zephaniah 3:12 the prophet writes, “For I will leave in the midst of you a people afflicted and poor, and they shall trust, seek refuge, and be confident in the name of the Lord.” In Mark 14:7 Jesus says, ”For you always have the poor with you, and whenever you wish you can do good to them; but you will not always have Me.” God is saying to us that He leaves the poor and needy on the earth for a reason. What is that reason? It took helping that young lady yesterday to give us the sharpened spiritual discernment to see this valuable lesson. What we learned is that helping the poor, along with intimate prayer, helps to dismantle the ‘self’ in each one of us. This happens as we pour our lives and resources into practically helping another. When we give of ourselves in love and empathy, ‘self’ does not have room to maneuver. By being kind and loving we are exercising the very actions that are the exact opposite of ‘self’. The humility required to help the poor effectively blunts the pride that is innate in all of us. ‘Self’ is effectively stopped in its tracks as the spirit in us, led by the Holy Spirit, takes over to pour out blessing on the less fortunate.
We can tell you from experience that when one tries to help the poor and needy when ‘self’ is still in full blown control, it will be dripping with condescension and pride. They will look down at the poor and in the end serve their own needs instead of the poor they are supposedly trying to help. The classic scripture is 1 Corinthians 13:3, ”Even if I dole out all that I have [to the poor in providing] food, and if I surrender my body to be burned or in order that I may glory, but have not love (God’s love in me), I gain nothing.” We encountered this many times and to this day we loathe encountering such people. On the other hand, when one has been touched by poverty, suffering, and hardship, the level of humility and empathy they have for the poor is astonishing and welcome. These people did not look down at us who are poor, but met us at our level. They looked to our need and with no thought of ‘self’ reached into their heart and gave us love. This is the real value of the wilderness. To learn the art of ‘selfless’ love that reaches out to help the poor and needy in a practical way that blesses them. It is the perspective of the “fox hole”, rather than the perspective of the ivory tower. To have the perspective of the foxhole, you will have to have lived in a fox hole.
I sit here and wonder at how people can sit in their pews or chairs, Sunday after Sunday, listening to someone drone on about God and never reach out in love and empathy to the poor and unfortunate. How can they say that they have somehow met with God in their service, when they have not served the less fortunate? How can they say they’ve touched the heart of God when His heart is for the poor and needy that are sleeping cold and shivering in the park on the bare ground with no food? How can these believers say they are walking with God when they hold on to ‘self’ and are so unwilling to let go of what they have to bless those that have nothing? I confess I do not understand how we ourselves lived like this before. It has taken the wilderness to help us understand “For you say, I am rich; I have prospered and grown wealthy, and I am in need of nothing; and you do not realize and understand that you are wretched, pitiable, poor, blind, and naked.” Revelation 3:17. By being broken of ‘self’ in the wilderness, we learned about what is valuable in His sight and what is the expression of love that He deeply desires.
Our day to day lives need to be full of those experiences where we, as mature adult sons, the Bride of the Most Holy One, are giving what we have to those that are needy with no thought of ‘self’. Knowing that our Father will replenish our supplies and resources multiple fold so that we can continue to help those around us in need. This is what happened yesterday. As we gave, more came to us. These are truly the tithes and offerings that please the Father. We do not give to get; we give to be the loving body of Christ in the earth and give directly to people in need without a “middle man”. This is the practical, living, daily example of living a life without ‘self’ He is looking for; and those bound in the religious systems just do not understand. He is looking for those that will begin the journey to rid themselves of that very thing that keeps them from Jesus. No, it is not the world or the devil or demons; it is your own enemy ‘self’. Nothing more and nothing less. It is the ‘self’ in you that keeps you from meeting Him in His heart. As you dismantle ‘self’, you will begin to see His heart is full of compassion, mercy and love for the poor and needy. If you do not know this, then you do not know Him. Only as you are rid of ‘self’, will you truly learn how to help the poor His way and touch His heart.
Blessings,
Homer and Wanda